Sunday, December 13, 2009

A letter to him, from me

I love you isn't strong enough to express what I feel for you. My soul loves you with all its fibers, my body aches to be with you with every cell. I cannot help but cry when you do, and I cannot help being happy with you, for you. I am so wrapped up in you that I think of you every minute. I only think of you when I am with you. You deserve no less.

You are everything to me. I don't mean this lightly. You. Are. My. Everything. I adore you, everything about you. I love your soul, I love all of you, every part, all the whole. I love you for you, and just for you, and not for anything else.

You deserve the best. You deserve to have anything you want. You deserve to be happy and you deserve to be loved. You deserve everything. I can't express this enough; you deserve it.

I do not pity you; I know better than that. I am only sorry I cannot fix your woes and your pain. I look into your eyes and see the pain that is there. I see all of your troubles, and it strikes me every time to want to to press you to my chest and keep you there. I want to turn your darkness to light.

I don't want to hurt you. I would hurt myself before I would hurt you. I don't want to make the same mistakes that they did, and I don't want to be like them. I want to be better, for you. Don't think that everyone will hurt you in the end; it doesn't always end like that. Just remember that you have more than one person who loves you dearly. And always remember that you love more than one person dearly.

I love you so much, it can't be expressed in the English language. So we came up with the word. Uber Heart.


________________
I'm not a perfect person
There's many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with every day
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
That's why I need you to hear

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you [x4]

I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you

A letter to me, from him.

Bury all your secrets in my skin
Come away with innocence and leave me with my sins
The air around me still feels like a cage
And love is just a camouflage for what resembles rage again

So if you love me let me go
And run away before I know
My heart is just too dark to care
I can't destroy what isn't there

Deliver me into my fate
If I'm alone I cannot hate
I don't deserve to have you
Oh, my smile was taken long ago
If I can change I hope I never know

I still press your letters to my lips
And cherish them in parts of me that savor every kiss
I couldn't face a life without your lights
But all of that was ripped apart when you refused to fight

So save your breath, I will not hear
I think I made it very clear
You couldn't hate enough to love
Is that supposed to be enough?

I only wish you weren't my friend
Then I could hurt you in the end
I never claimed to be a saint
Ooh, my own was banished long ago
It took the death of hope to let you go

So break yourself against my stones
And spit your pity in my soul
You never needed any help
You sold me out to save yourself

And I won't listen to your shame
You ran away, you're all the same
Angels lie to keep control
Oh, my love was punished long ago
If you still care don't ever let me know
If you still care don't ever let me know

Young

We are young
But we have heart
Born in this world as it all falls apart
We are strong
But we don't belong
Born in this world as it all falls apart

I see the children in the rain
Like the parade before the pain
I see the love, I see the hate
I see this world that we can make
I see the life, I see the sky
Give it all to see you fly

Yes, we wave this flag of hatred
But you're the ones who made it
Watch the beauty of all our lies
Passing right before my eyes
I hear the hate in all your words
All the wars to make us hurt
We get so sick oh so sick
We never wanted all this
Medication for the kids with no reason to live

So we march to the drums
Of the dammed as we come
Watch it burn in the sun
We are numb

We are young
But we have heart
Born in this world as it all falls apart
We are strong
But we don't belong
Born in this world as it all falls apart

As we walk among these shadows
In these streets, these fields of battle
Take it up, we wear the medal
Raise your hands with burning candles
Hear us whisper in the dark
In the rain you see the spark
Feel the beating of our hearts
Fleeting hope as we depart

All together, walk alone
Against all we've ever known
All we've ever really wanted
Was a place to call our home
But you take all we are
The innocence of our hearts
Made to kneel before the alter
As you tear us apart

So we march to the drums
Of the dammed as we come
Watch it burn in the sun
We are numb

We are young
But we have heart
Born in this world as it all falls apart
We are strong
But we don't belong
Born in this world as it all falls apart

We will fight or we will fall
Till the angels save us all (4x)

We are young
But we have heart
Born in this world as it all falls apart
We are strong
But we don't belong
Born in this world as it all falls apart (2x)