Sunday, December 13, 2009

A letter to him, from me

I love you isn't strong enough to express what I feel for you. My soul loves you with all its fibers, my body aches to be with you with every cell. I cannot help but cry when you do, and I cannot help being happy with you, for you. I am so wrapped up in you that I think of you every minute. I only think of you when I am with you. You deserve no less.

You are everything to me. I don't mean this lightly. You. Are. My. Everything. I adore you, everything about you. I love your soul, I love all of you, every part, all the whole. I love you for you, and just for you, and not for anything else.

You deserve the best. You deserve to have anything you want. You deserve to be happy and you deserve to be loved. You deserve everything. I can't express this enough; you deserve it.

I do not pity you; I know better than that. I am only sorry I cannot fix your woes and your pain. I look into your eyes and see the pain that is there. I see all of your troubles, and it strikes me every time to want to to press you to my chest and keep you there. I want to turn your darkness to light.

I don't want to hurt you. I would hurt myself before I would hurt you. I don't want to make the same mistakes that they did, and I don't want to be like them. I want to be better, for you. Don't think that everyone will hurt you in the end; it doesn't always end like that. Just remember that you have more than one person who loves you dearly. And always remember that you love more than one person dearly.

I love you so much, it can't be expressed in the English language. So we came up with the word. Uber Heart.


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I'm not a perfect person
There's many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with every day
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
That's why I need you to hear

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you [x4]

I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you

5 comments:

Christina said...

Honey, you aren't us. The mistakes you'll make are as unique as you are. Trying to make sure we don't make the same mistakes as *our* parents is one of the legion of things that has brought us to where we are. Don't make that mistake.

You see what therapy has done for me. Try it. See if it works for you. Love you, Mom.

微笑每一天 said...

thanks................................................

jon0301astabron said...

Nice post ~ 3Q..............................................................

宛儒DarwinM_Pawlak0203 said...

Time and tide wait for no man. ............................................................

智宜 said...

It is never too late to learn. .................................................................